Hello.
When a bunch of five girls who love each other,
with their own complicated world to wonder,
To talk about it they'll gather,
This is what you'll get,
and it's like no other.
Navigations are the 4 clouds.
NOW is not last time. :)
HELLO WORLD! :))woah.Finally! Our mission is completed. haha.This blog shall be the 5 ninas' from today onwards!A big thank yoo to SuMasAk for sponsoring your blog. heheh.This is the place for yoo to speak what yoo're really feeling yoo bedahs! :)BTW, I MISS YOO GUYS MANY MANY! <3So, let's start.Okay.Frankly speaking, i've been hiding my feelings too much.People see me as the 24 hours happy goober and a supergirl who can save the world (haha. rite.)but actually, deep inside, i'm hurting. Like crazy.The problem with me is that i can't show my true feelings because i don't want the ppl around me, whom i love many many, to be worried.I don't want them to stop smiling when they don't see me smile and when they know i have a problem.So, in the end, i'm in a false pretence.Me outside= :)Me inside. :_____________________________________________________(Yoo see how long my tears are. haha.Yea, i've found out one thing about me.I don't know if it's a weakness or strength; i seldom get angry eventhough i'm supposed to. hah.and I think my mistake is that, i can be too soft on ppl at times.In the end, i tend to get hurt as they know i won't get angry and they will end up stepping my head and take advantage of my patience.Well, i don't have the anger still but i do have the disappointment.I remember what Miss Nani say (LOL. very odd. very random. haha.) sadness goes, but disappointment stays.Yes, and i'm really disappointed.With who? I don't name names. :)"I've tried to reach you.You don't know how hard it was.I don't understand why you dare do it, but you just don't dare tell me.You said you don't want to hurt me.But that's what you're doin' right now.I know what's going on.What you've been up to without me knowing.But eventually, i did.It would have been better if you have told me earlier, so that i don't feel so hurt like how i do now.Getting to know it myself is really painful.and the day that i got to know everything was the day that i was sick.and you don't even bother.You don't know how crushed i felt,How much i've cried.Well, you said you will try finding your way back to yourself.and i said that i would help you.Sorry, i just can't now.Cause you've chosen to be the new guy that you are now.I don't know who am i to you now.And i don't even know who you are now.Last time, it was really hard for me to accept you.I have second, third, forth+++ thoughts.Eventually, i did, because you moved me.Because i never thought you would become the person that you are now.Why do i believe in miracles? Because you made me.I missed the person that you were.
Everything has changed now.
Easy for you, i guess, because you've moved on so quickly.
Well, if the reason is because you don't feel loved, i really did.
I just don't know what's wrong with you ever since you heard the 'bad news'.
What i'll pray now, is that one day, you'll realise your mistakes and i hope, like Jee said, you'll learn to cherish ppl for who they are, not for how they look like.
and sometimes i wonder, does she even know i existed being your "one and only". hah. I feel like a joke. A big one.
I really loveD you.Eventhough i still do, i'm trying not to.Thank yoo for the memories."WOAH.I can't believe I just typed those out.Crushed,Cheated, Crumpled.and That's how i really feel. :) Haiyo, so emo. yikes. haha.Thanks many many yoo girls for always being by my side!I couldn't ask for more. :)and JEE: You're falling? for him? WOO. haha.

and forever, i'll be your supergirl! WOO. :) hwahwa.
eh know what? I feel like cutting my hair. okay, random. haha.
Hasta la vista, baby! <3
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