Hello you nina beydahs. :))

What happened to this blog?
Let's relive it again because it makes me sad seeing it being abandoned.
because I, Masturah Bte Khalid,
know what it feels like to be abandoned mmm hmm hahah.

So how?
Love this new skin?
I just randomly chose it.
Because the first time i saw the giraffe, it made me happy.
So i guess it'll make all of you happy too hey hahah.

I really miss every single one of you.
Jee, i miss your t**** randomness and always trying to get on me.
Mel, i miss your smart jokes which always makes me laugh.
Mal, i miss your nonsense and craziness and miss you as my classmate.
Eli, i miss you mat language and merepekness.
SO I KNOW YOU ALL MISS ME TOO CAUSE I'M ALWAYS MILES AWAY FROM ALL OF YOU UNTIL NIGHT HAHAHAHAHAH!
So let's keep an update on our lives here okay?
Mel and Malak, UPDATE LA PLS TSK.

I miss secondary school days.
I know i've been repeating this alot of times but i really miss them alot.
Life and the culture in the west is so different, that even until now,
i still haven't got used to it yet.
and it has been more than a year????? tsk.
Yeah, that shows how much i still prefer the east culture.

Well, i don't know, except for some of course, like my friends.
and i'm glad that all the friends i made there are nice people. :)
but i just don't like being there.
I've known of some not-so-nice people.
Not that it involves me but seeing friends mistreating friends there really scares me.
and i am really sick of people whom all they care about is freaking who's popular, who's pretty, who's handsome and who's rich.
Yepp, there, that's what they usually talk about.
All day judging other people but themselves.
People try to fit in a lot with the more popular ones and suck up to those who are better looking.
People constantly, i really mean constantly, not even the line of best fit or less, looking out for the good looking ones and what do they do?
Call them their EC. -_____-
Yeah, most girls there find it a MUST to have one.
strange right hahah.
People trying to keep their cool because why?
They think it's important to maintain their so-called "reputation."
People who cares too much about what other people talk about them.
They will then tend to pretend to be someone else but themselves.
They even tend to believe what the other say instead of the person that is involved in the matter.
This fact really saddens me.

and i'm really so sick of hearing these kind of stories.
and gossip is like the main thing that's going on every single day.
Not the plain kind of gossip, but the really not-even-you-want-to-know kind.
I'm just so sick of all these people and same old stories everyday.
The truth is, i'm really afraid of that place.
So much that i just can't wait to leave that place,
And i really don't like being alone on the way back home and to school.
Like can you imagine?
How lonely i really feel when i walk out of the school gate nearly every single day after school?
With no one to walk out with me, just like we all did in sec sch.
Well, i have a couple of friends which i really would call real friends.
But i know, i can't depend on them too much.
Because they have a lot and i mean really a lot of other friends there too.
and i don't even know if the way i treat some people ( in a good way ),
would be the same way they treat me too.
They can't really be there for me almost as always like all of you did.
I just miss the kind of company i used to have with all of you. :(
I really do.

Yeah, life hasn't been so good lately.
Nor too bad.
It's just plain old mundane.
and one thing i've learnt.
I think i am an easy person to forget.

I've stopped liking fairytales.
Because i've seen too much of the ugly side of this world.
I've stopped being very much an optimist like i used to be.
Because it hurts to know most of the people around you are being too pessimistic against your hopes.

And a question to ponder about.
Have you ever felt to be less of a nice person because all you keep on getting from people around you are disappointment and the not-so-goods?

Because that's how i feel.




Hope you darlings are doing just fine.
Unlike the retainee here hah.
Meet up soon pls.
Love you always. :)