blogger: eLiHELLO bedahs! haha.. i think im living in a world of fakeness.. i swear.. everythings plastic.. & everythings instant nowadays like instant noodles.. damn that Momofuku Ando! niwaes thats e person who invented instant noodles & im doing him for PW.. hahaha.. i dunno wat im talking abt, i swear! huahauha.. soo random, sooo hyper..
it's just sad that you u're falling for someone that u think is the right guy for u but u noe you cant be with him & it's just impossible.. haiyoo.. it sucks seriously.. u look at him & u want him but then again u cant..
why does he always get the attention of guys.. it just that he tells me a gazillion stories abt them & sumtimes im seriously tired of hearing them.. i mean come onla.. which one do u want?? 7,8,9??
omg, im starting to bitch again.. no wonder they say im becoming bimbotic.. like wtf! soo notla..
i know i've change ppl.. i know that.. sorry for the inconvenience caused.. whether u like it or not.. i think i like who i am now.. im loving my life now, Alhamdullilah.. sorry i've change coz sometimes when u mix with sumone to much, u tend to become like them & one of them.. i love my circle of frens.. which includes the bedahs & them.. all of them are like the kind of friends i've always wanted & im grateful for that.. i seriously think i need more gfs in Mj! coz im talking like the guys now.. sory if u get irritated coz i talk abt them too much coz again, i mix with them a lot than my usual frens.. & i dunno wat to talk abt.. ppl change & so, live with it.. u cnt change them back sumtimes..
sorry again for the convenience caused..
i seriously hate being the only keeper left.. i feel left out when im with the girls soccer coz i dunno who to mix with.. thats why after soccer i'll depend on Shaz or most of the time i'll go with they guys if they're having training.. sumtimes seriously i think i want to be a guy, with brains & good soccer player.. haha.. then if i become a guy, the others wont say that i menggatal with them or wat.. wateverla.. sumtimes i think being a guy is better.. but then, every gender has their own flaws..
and sumtimes i think having a relationship sucks.. and im scared of having one if im even going to have one in the future.. sumtimes fak guys! wahah.. girls rox! see, im contradicting myself again.. i think sumtimes being in a good/bad relationship changes u.. either u become a happy person, or a sad person all the time.. in a good relationship, u become a happy, if not a happier person.. in a bad relationship, u become a sadder person.. thats why im scared to have a relationship coz i dunno which category i'll fall into..
sumtimes i feel like i wana be pretty & has the brains & everything that a guy wants.. im sick & tired of hearing ur frens's pretty & ur frens hot! u've heard it a gazillion times.. wat abt u?? screw them! hahaha.. but still, im thankful for wat i am.. Alhamdullilah.. everyone has their own speciality & im still searching wads mine.. a person can be hot but cn be all hairy.. hahah.. see wat i mean.. everyone's not perfect..
i hate being alone coz i usually get emo & listen to jiwang songs wen im alone.. soo dont leave me alone! hahah..
okay, im done in letting my feelings out.. go read it if u want coz i think it's long.. ignore it if u want to..
& sumtimes i think somethings in life r just not meant to be told & i shall keep it inside.. =)
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