mas is back to destroy the world instead, maybe.
Hello you nina beydahs. :))
What happened to this blog?
Let's relive it again because it makes me sad seeing it being abandoned.
because I, Masturah Bte Khalid,
know what it feels like to be abandoned mmm hmm hahah.
So how?
Love this new skin?
I just randomly chose it.
Because the first time i saw the giraffe, it made me happy.
So i guess it'll make all of you happy too hey hahah.
I really miss every single one of you.
Jee, i miss your t**** randomness and always trying to get on me.
Mel, i miss your smart jokes which always makes me laugh.
Mal, i miss your nonsense and craziness and miss you as my classmate.
Eli, i miss you mat language and merepekness.
SO I KNOW YOU ALL MISS ME TOO CAUSE I'M ALWAYS MILES AWAY FROM ALL OF YOU UNTIL NIGHT HAHAHAHAHAH!
So let's keep an update on our lives here okay?
Mel and Malak, UPDATE LA PLS TSK.
I miss secondary school days.
I know i've been repeating this alot of times but i really miss them alot.
Life and the culture in the west is so different, that even until now,
i still haven't got used to it yet.
and it has been more than a year????? tsk.
Yeah, that shows how much i still prefer the east culture.
Well, i don't know, except for some of course, like my friends.
and i'm glad that all the friends i made there are nice people. :)
but i just don't like being there.
I've known of some not-so-nice people.
Not that it involves me but seeing friends mistreating friends there really scares me.
and i am really sick of people whom all they care about is freaking who's popular, who's pretty, who's handsome and who's rich.
Yepp, there, that's what they usually talk about.
All day judging other people but themselves.
People try to fit in a lot with the more popular ones and suck up to those who are better looking.
People constantly, i really mean constantly, not even the line of best fit or less, looking out for the good looking ones and what do they do?
Call them their EC. -_____-
Yeah, most girls there find it a MUST to have one.
strange right hahah.
People trying to keep their cool because why?
They think it's important to maintain their so-called "reputation."
People who cares too much about what other people talk about them.
They will then tend to pretend to be someone else but themselves.
They even tend to believe what the other say instead of the person that is involved in the matter.
This fact really saddens me.
and i'm really so sick of hearing these kind of stories.
and gossip is like the main thing that's going on every single day.
Not the plain kind of gossip, but the really not-even-you-want-to-know kind.
I'm just so sick of all these people and same old stories everyday.
The truth is, i'm really afraid of that place.
So much that i just can't wait to leave that place,
And i really don't like being alone on the way back home and to school.
Like can you imagine?
How lonely i really feel when i walk out of the school gate nearly every single day after school?
With no one to walk out with me, just like we all did in sec sch.
Well, i have a couple of friends which i really would call real friends.
But i know, i can't depend on them too much.
Because they have a lot and i mean really a lot of other friends there too.
and i don't even know if the way i treat some people ( in a good way ),
would be the same way they treat me too.
They can't really be there for me almost as always like all of you did.
I just miss the kind of company i used to have with all of you. :(
I really do.
Yeah, life hasn't been so good lately.
Nor too bad.
It's just plain old mundane.
and one thing i've learnt.
I think i am an easy person to forget.
I've stopped liking fairytales.
Because i've seen too much of the ugly side of this world.
I've stopped being very much an optimist like i used to be.
Because it hurts to know most of the people around you are being too pessimistic against your hopes.
And a question to ponder about.
Have you ever felt to be less of a nice person because all you keep on getting from people around you are disappointment and the not-so-goods?
Because that's how i feel.
Hope you darlings are doing just fine.
Unlike the retainee here hah.
Meet up soon pls.
Love you always. :)
Sunday, April 20, 2008 at Sunday, April 20, 2008
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JEE is back to save the world
Let`s not let the blog die, yes? :D
this is a very nice song you should download and listen to it.
Avril Lavigne - When You`re Gone.
i feel randomly happy. you know you can`t stop something that`s coming to you at full speed. i`ll just wait for the time when it`ll crash onto me. meanwhile, i`ll just watch it approach me quietly, at one safe corner.
anddddddddddddd MAS, some people can be real motherfuckers at times. they talk like mirrors don`t exist on Earth. serious sial. forget it lah. no use getting mad over something which is really, not worth your feelings - even anger or resentment. (:
Live life like it`s your last.
Enjoy today, for you might not know what`s gonna happen tomorrow.
Love you babes.
Adios.
Friday, June 8, 2007 at Friday, June 08, 2007
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blogger: eLiHELLO bedahs! haha.. i think im living in a world of fakeness.. i swear.. everythings plastic.. & everythings instant nowadays like instant noodles.. damn that Momofuku Ando! niwaes thats e person who invented instant noodles & im doing him for PW.. hahaha.. i dunno wat im talking abt, i swear! huahauha.. soo random, sooo hyper..
it's just sad that you u're falling for someone that u think is the right guy for u but u noe you cant be with him & it's just impossible.. haiyoo.. it sucks seriously.. u look at him & u want him but then again u cant..
why does he always get the attention of guys.. it just that he tells me a gazillion stories abt them & sumtimes im seriously tired of hearing them.. i mean come onla.. which one do u want?? 7,8,9??
omg, im starting to bitch again.. no wonder they say im becoming bimbotic.. like wtf! soo notla..
i know i've change ppl.. i know that.. sorry for the inconvenience caused.. whether u like it or not.. i think i like who i am now.. im loving my life now, Alhamdullilah.. sorry i've change coz sometimes when u mix with sumone to much, u tend to become like them & one of them.. i love my circle of frens.. which includes the bedahs & them.. all of them are like the kind of friends i've always wanted & im grateful for that.. i seriously think i need more gfs in Mj! coz im talking like the guys now.. sory if u get irritated coz i talk abt them too much coz again, i mix with them a lot than my usual frens.. & i dunno wat to talk abt.. ppl change & so, live with it.. u cnt change them back sumtimes..
sorry again for the convenience caused..
i seriously hate being the only keeper left.. i feel left out when im with the girls soccer coz i dunno who to mix with.. thats why after soccer i'll depend on Shaz or most of the time i'll go with they guys if they're having training.. sumtimes seriously i think i want to be a guy, with brains & good soccer player.. haha.. then if i become a guy, the others wont say that i menggatal with them or wat.. wateverla.. sumtimes i think being a guy is better.. but then, every gender has their own flaws..
and sumtimes i think having a relationship sucks.. and im scared of having one if im even going to have one in the future.. sumtimes fak guys! wahah.. girls rox! see, im contradicting myself again.. i think sumtimes being in a good/bad relationship changes u.. either u become a happy person, or a sad person all the time.. in a good relationship, u become a happy, if not a happier person.. in a bad relationship, u become a sadder person.. thats why im scared to have a relationship coz i dunno which category i'll fall into..
sumtimes i feel like i wana be pretty & has the brains & everything that a guy wants.. im sick & tired of hearing ur frens's pretty & ur frens hot! u've heard it a gazillion times.. wat abt u?? screw them! hahaha.. but still, im thankful for wat i am.. Alhamdullilah.. everyone has their own speciality & im still searching wads mine.. a person can be hot but cn be all hairy.. hahah.. see wat i mean.. everyone's not perfect..
i hate being alone coz i usually get emo & listen to jiwang songs wen im alone.. soo dont leave me alone! hahah..
okay, im done in letting my feelings out.. go read it if u want coz i think it's long.. ignore it if u want to..
& sumtimes i think somethings in life r just not meant to be told & i shall keep it inside.. =)
Labels: wish u were mine
Monday, June 4, 2007 at Monday, June 04, 2007
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NOW is not last time. :)
HELLO WORLD! :))woah.Finally! Our mission is completed. haha.This blog shall be the 5 ninas' from today onwards!A big thank yoo to SuMasAk for sponsoring your blog. heheh.This is the place for yoo to speak what yoo're really feeling yoo bedahs! :)BTW, I MISS YOO GUYS MANY MANY! <3So, let's start.Okay.Frankly speaking, i've been hiding my feelings too much.People see me as the 24 hours happy goober and a supergirl who can save the world (haha. rite.)but actually, deep inside, i'm hurting. Like crazy.The problem with me is that i can't show my true feelings because i don't want the ppl around me, whom i love many many, to be worried.I don't want them to stop smiling when they don't see me smile and when they know i have a problem.So, in the end, i'm in a false pretence.Me outside= :)Me inside. :_____________________________________________________(Yoo see how long my tears are. haha.Yea, i've found out one thing about me.I don't know if it's a weakness or strength; i seldom get angry eventhough i'm supposed to. hah.and I think my mistake is that, i can be too soft on ppl at times.In the end, i tend to get hurt as they know i won't get angry and they will end up stepping my head and take advantage of my patience.Well, i don't have the anger still but i do have the disappointment.I remember what Miss Nani say (LOL. very odd. very random. haha.) sadness goes, but disappointment stays.Yes, and i'm really disappointed.With who? I don't name names. :)"I've tried to reach you.You don't know how hard it was.I don't understand why you dare do it, but you just don't dare tell me.You said you don't want to hurt me.But that's what you're doin' right now.I know what's going on.What you've been up to without me knowing.But eventually, i did.It would have been better if you have told me earlier, so that i don't feel so hurt like how i do now.Getting to know it myself is really painful.and the day that i got to know everything was the day that i was sick.and you don't even bother.You don't know how crushed i felt,How much i've cried.Well, you said you will try finding your way back to yourself.and i said that i would help you.Sorry, i just can't now.Cause you've chosen to be the new guy that you are now.I don't know who am i to you now.And i don't even know who you are now.Last time, it was really hard for me to accept you.I have second, third, forth+++ thoughts.Eventually, i did, because you moved me.Because i never thought you would become the person that you are now.Why do i believe in miracles? Because you made me.I missed the person that you were.
Everything has changed now.
Easy for you, i guess, because you've moved on so quickly.
Well, if the reason is because you don't feel loved, i really did.
I just don't know what's wrong with you ever since you heard the 'bad news'.
What i'll pray now, is that one day, you'll realise your mistakes and i hope, like Jee said, you'll learn to cherish ppl for who they are, not for how they look like.
and sometimes i wonder, does she even know i existed being your "one and only". hah. I feel like a joke. A big one.
I really loveD you.Eventhough i still do, i'm trying not to.Thank yoo for the memories."WOAH.I can't believe I just typed those out.Crushed,Cheated, Crumpled.and That's how i really feel. :) Haiyo, so emo. yikes. haha.Thanks many many yoo girls for always being by my side!I couldn't ask for more. :)and JEE: You're falling? for him? WOO. haha.
and forever, i'll be your supergirl! WOO. :) hwahwa.
eh know what? I feel like cutting my hair. okay, random. haha.
Hasta la vista, baby! <3
Labels: and i'm falling out.
Sunday, June 3, 2007 at Sunday, June 03, 2007
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Jee is feeling random
HELLO HELLO.
woo im so excited to post. i don`t exactly know what this blog is about but i like the colors sial. just that i dislike the clickclick layout of the blog. but overall it`s awesome to share a blog with my girlfriends. heh. :D
oh ya. Mas said we`re supposed to let out our feelings here. so yeah. i`ll try to let out as much as possible. woohoots.
life is pretty good at this juncture. all about having fun. and this reminds me that i`ve yet to start revising. hawhaw. i love how things are going now. not too fast, not too slow. hah. some things just got me thinking and it gets pretty confusing. enjoying singlehood at the time being. but you know, sometimes, you just feel like having that special someone by your side to care for you, nags at you to have regular meals, flirts with each other (haha) and maybe, just to chat til early in the morning. i miss that feeling. haha. sorry, this doesn`t mean im hinting on something okay. just a random thought/feeling thanks. (:
hmmmmmm. getting into a relationship is not as easy as it seems. wait, finding the right man is already a tough task. it`s so difficult to find one who can really appreciate you as who you are and not just by judging on looks alone. ohmann what im talking about okay nevermind. i`ve been thinking lately about the past. right, i`ve moved on but the memories just bugged me at times and i`ll get all emo. it sucks. sigh. too many unanswered questions on my mind. zz.
and i wonder how everyone else`s doing every day in school. like Mas in Pjc, Malak in Tpjc, Mel in Vjc. just wonder how life`s like without having the usual company; the sixers. haha, but just hope all`s having fun. :D
okie dokes i`ll blog more when i feel expressive. haha.
ADIOS.
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what if i say im falling for a guy?
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Oh man. That's it. I'm dead. MALAK'S GONE!! Nono. Still alive. haha. Okay.. Chasing someone in the airport is no easy thing. Seriously. LoLS. Man.. I was so close to meeting Malak. Darn me. I woke up late. Haix.. Bt then you really feel as though you're acting in some love movies when you are chasing after one person with your mp3 on. SERIOUS... Lols. Cos i've experienced that while chasing after Malak! haix. CLOSE!YES!! like eli said, last two days, 25 NOVEMBER 2006We have a fun girls day at Malak's house. Plus her little bro also. haha. Played loads of crap. Pillow fights. Wrestling with Malak because she dropped my hp 3 TIMES!! lols. Actually, i don't quite care larh cos i think my hp is immuned to that. haha. It's because i just want to bruise her before she goes back to indo. mooahahah. Great fun! Then played some card, bingo, and casino shit (haha. right. casino.) Yay. And today.. HAD FUN TOO. with all the 4h-ians. I'm the only 4k there. Lyk wth. Malak! I need u!! Went to vivo-wooo with Eli, HaoHao, Si Wei, Tau, Glenny and Rushy. Went to catch CASINO ROYALE. cool-shit. bt.. Me and Eli don't quite get the show. Haha. We're only impressed by the BONDing moves. While the rest were caught up with the other things. You know wutt larh huh.. :p haha. 
Malak's shoe. haha
Haiya. Havin probs again!! More pix coming up soon!!MALAK!! I MISS YOU BADLY!! I RAN TO THE AIRPORT JUST TO KNOW U'RE GONE!! U OWE ME A BIG PREZZIE!! :) 1 MONTH and 4 more days to go. WTH.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006 at Tuesday, November 28, 2006
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well, today mas, jee n i went to malak's house.. she'll be leaving 4 indo tmr.. ='( sooo sad.. haiz.. our worlds gonna be empty without u.. no more bedah-sessions on the phone!! haha.. she'll be gone like 1mth & 5 days.. like wadahell!! that's like super duper longla.. she wont be with us on new yr's eve.. haiz.. that's sad.. she's gonna learn driving der coz she's old ppl.. old.. turning 18 soon.. eighteen.. yes malak,e-i-g-h-t-e-e-n.. ur getting old malak.. haha.. i wanna learn driving too.. but i'll hv to wait like wat?? 2 yrs or izzit 5 yrs?? dunnola.. haiz..
niwaes today was fun! wen i came, aisyah(malak's sis) was dancing e high sch musical song "we're all in dis together" song.. it was cutela although malak thought that she was acting cute.. haiz.. sisters.. haha.. i understand perfectly.. we played pillow fights n all that.. owh yar we played bingo too! haha..it's quite lamela but nevertheless, it was fun.. i won 1st followed by mas, jee, then aisyah.. malak lost.. boohoo!! haha.. we wanted her to go to her balcony n do the monkey dance n shout her neighbour's name as a forfeit but she kept changing e subject.. tk sporting ar malak.. den we played card games.. it's somekind like "snap" but we made dis game ourselves.. it was cool shit sia.. haha.. each of us lost at least 1 time.. jee was super excited e 2nd time that she lost.. haha.. nvr seen her that giler b4..
we went upstairs n watched malak's mum do e aerobic dance.. it was soo cool.. her mum is soo sporting, unlike mine..
we had an emotional goodbye 4 malak.. malak almost wen on tears.. cant believe she'll be leaving us 4 1mth++.. no more oinking arnd with her.. haha..nvm.. make sure she's buying us presents, my birthday present der.. huahua.. tk tau malu.. owh yar n mas's long belated birthday too! haha.. sory mas =p.. im sure she doesnt mind rite?? rite mas?? hehe..
after that mas n jee went home.. i went back home walking.. my feet hurt like hell frm yest's farewell party.. shouldnt hv worn that high heels shoe.. i've got blisters everywhere! owh gosh..
how am i suppose to go johor tmr with my feet hurting like this?? plus i've got 6B challet after that.. im sooo dead tmr.. nvm.. i'm goin shopping tmr!!
shopping!! whoohoo!! tk mo jealeous ar mas.. =P.. wahaha..
we love you malak!! dun u dare 4get us!! we'll kill u if u do..gonna miss u sooooo much!! *muacks* see u next year..owh yar.. dun keep eating der malak.. dun grow fat!! i noe der's a lot of temptations der.. haha..Labels: eli the great =)
Sunday, November 26, 2006 at Sunday, November 26, 2006
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